today, the sun shone so brightly.
i went outside & it felt like spring.
45 degrees. loved it.
it's been that way all week.

eating: black bean burgers & tater tots
drinking: stash chai tea w/ soy milk & sugar
watching: house party 2
smelling: maroma cinnamon incense
making: new tams for the shop.

happy new year!

i am very excited about this year. i've got so many good things planned and i can't wait to embark on them.

i made a few resolutions:
1. have more fun with my wardrobe.
2. use my food processor more
3. say yes more

i've fallen into a rut with my wardrobe and that's gonna change. i haven't been feeling too fly lately and i've gained my weight back so needless to say i haven't felt inspired to create new outfits from my wardrobe.

i made fresh guacomole yesterday and realized if i leave my food processor out on the counter instead of in a cabinet, i will use it a lot more.

i must say yes more often. yes to new opportunities. this year is about having fun and discovering new things.

i'm currently working on my office/studio space. i've been watching a lot of threadbanger and have the urge to sew.

i'm always inspired by the artists they interview. i want to make a loom now too. check the vid!



wishing you all peace and prosperity this year!

i've been knitting & boy does it feel good.

this is a baby sweater for my little cousin. i used the knitting pure & simple neckdown baby cardigan pattern. the size is 18 months, but when i first looked at it i wasn't sure if it was big enough. it seems like it's been such a long time since lil miss could fit in something this small.

i'm currently looking for a new project to start. it's been so cold lately that i've been tempted to start another sweater. i do need a new cardi in my life.

*swoon*

stephanie japel's therapi pattern in the new knitty.

also in the new knitty is norah gaughan's surface.  love the bobbly texture of this sweater.

i miss knitting for me.  that's gonna change.  gotta cast on something even it's something as little as a headband.

i've been making a dent in my bead stash lately.


the yellow strand is the waistbeads i made for myself.


right now, i'm using seed beads, some african trade beads, cowries, and some other beads that's in my stash (don't know what they are called). i'm pleased with the results so far and will be making a ton more.

the weekend just sped by. lately, when saturday eve rolls around the depression rolls in & i think about how after sunday i have to go back to work. i dread walking into that office everyday. it's not a happy place for me.

this weekend, lil miss & i put up the christmas tree. we also baked cupcakes.
i started a pair of socks & anutha neckwarmer.
i was recently diagnosed with having slight carpal tunnel in both hands. i'm not in any pain (thank god), just getting the tingley/numbness of the hands thing. after this retail season is done, i plan on closing shop for a couple of months.
i've started beading. i figure i could save so much money if i make my own jewelry so that's what i'm doing. so far, i've made some waistbeads and a couple of wrap-around bracelets.

i will post up some pics soon.
i pray all is well with you.

today's a new day & i'm feeling better.
i got some decisions to make tho.
can't keep living like this.

have a blessed day all.

lord help me get thru this thing i'm going thru.

i'm feeling...
unsure.
confused.
like i want to jump outta my skin.
lost.

spoke to my brother today and he said that once he would love to hear that "i am great" when he asks how i'm doing. i'm alright. okay. keeping my head above water. i'm want to be GREAT too.

i've got tons of ideas & don't know what to do with them.
i know what direction i want to go in but don't know how to get there.
i sound like a broken record.
i feel alone, but @ the same time i want to be by myself.

*sigh*

it's been so cold lately. really cold. i have to say i wasn't prepared for it. but when am i ever prepared for it. i'm looking forward to some snow cuz this place looks downright depressing without it.

i've managed to catch a cold. this is not the time to be getting sick. i've got two weeks to make as much product as possible before my next school term starts.

anyway i'm making flower brooches these days. it's an easy way to use up scrap yarn.



i'm going to rest myself now. goodnite.

i'm compiling a list of things i want to do. ya know, the type of things you always tell yourself you're gonna do, but then chicken out. well, i know i'm missing out on some great opportunities. so i'm gonna give it a shot.

two things on the list that i've just started:
taking a sign language class (offered thru my job)
participate in nanowrimo - i signed up today!

to be continued...

my favorite corner

listening to: stay a little while child.loose ends

i've been:
crocheting scarves & knitting neckwarmers
watching the snow fall (yes, it has started already)
reading stories to lil miss
settling into the new place
enjoying itunes 8.0 genius app
laughing with friends
eating too much junk
experimenting with different loc styles (i got length yay!)
drinking matcha green tea
planning my next move
making lists
applying for craft fair space
wondering where the time has gone
losing my mind in our new target store (alaska don't know what's hit it)
inspired

made dinner tonite. bbq tofu, marinated kale greens, scallop potatoes, and black beans. i eat black beans all the time. gotta switch it up a bit.

i've spent the day cleaning and washing clothes. i'm still not finished and it's almost 10:30. i gotta fit homework in the mix too. depression is a bitch and i'm still wondering if it's real. will it go away? am i making this up? when i don't complete something or perform my best, i feel worse. so i'm doing my best to be gentle with myself. doing my best to pat myself on the back for the little things i accomplish. it's so easy to focus on the negative and i definitely notice a difference when i focus on the positive.

sometimes i wonder how much i should share in this space. then sometimes i think it shouldn't matter. it doesn't i guess.

i'm blabbing now. gotta wash the dishes and put a fresh set of sheets on the bed.

goodnight.

my apartment is beginning to feel like home. my parents came over last nite and helped me unpack a lot of boxes. without them, i'd be unpacking until november. god bless them. they are so amazing.

the snow has begun to fall on the mountains (it's so pretty) and there's a little chill in the air. but the sun is shining (thank goodness after so much rain) and the grass is still green. it's a beautiful day people.

may you enjoy your saturday! have a great weekend.

we've been in our place for three days. lil miss is so thrilled. i am too. there's so much work to be done and i think it'll take at least a month before i get all of my boxes unpacked. i'm looking forward to that though cuz i want to decorate my space so badly. i saw the potential before all of the boxes were put in the living room. i have a room for my yarn and things. i'm excited about that too.

it's getting dark at nite nowadays. it's always a strange transition - you get used to the extremely long days and then one day you look out of your window and it's dark. i like this time of year. the moon and stars show themselves again and it's like reuniting with old friends. the leaves have started to turn colors and the mountains are covered in purple, yellow, and green.

this is a time of transition. i found my sacred woman & heal thyself books. i am definitely going to do a cleanse. i feel empowered these days.

i am so thankful to the most high!

ladies (& gentleman?), i got the apartment! i made a list of what i wanted in a place before i moved (three bedrooms was on that list). i haven't really thought about it since but got exactly what was on the list. i was looking at two bedroom apartments because those were what i could afford. lil miss and i drove up to this place and she/we fell in love. i looked at the two bedroom, wanted it, knew i was going to get it, and then the owners told me they rented it. but then they offered to rent me their three bedroom for the same price. i got the official call today and we're moving this weekend!

i have been beaming all day. i couldn't wait to get lil miss from school so i could tell her the news. posting around these parts will be sparse for a few weeks until we get settled. i want to thank everyone who put out some good energy for me. it's so appreciated!

peace & blessings.

listening to: wild wild wild is the wind.suzi analogue

this has been an interesting day. i went to bed last nite not feeling well. i woke up to my head in a cloud and my throat sore. lil miss has started to cough. we're both getting a cold. i felt worse as the day went on, but stayed at work to finish an online class.

this was my fourth time taking this class (need a 100% to pass) and today was the last day to complete it. i was leaving early to head to a dr's appt (gotta get to the bottom of this acne breakout) so i gathered up my book to complete the last test at home.

i had been praying for a week that this dr's visit wasn't going to cost a lot. i brought the money i had and just kept praying. when that woman told me all i had to pay was my $15 co-pay, i almost screamed with excitement.

my head's still in a fog and i almost forgot to take the last test for my class. once again, i prayed. prayed that i would pass (you get three chances, i was already on the second) this time. i just finished and PASSED! i couldn't help but cry. that's one stress off of my shoulders.

i'm going to sleep good tonite.

peace peace peace
love love love

fall is on its way and i'm wondering what's in store for me. i saw the most beautiful apartment the other day. even lil miss was in love. the apartment hunt is coming to an end tho. there is a friend of a friend that is willing to rent to me (yay!), however, i have yet to see the place so i don't know if it will work for us. we'll see tho.

feeling good these days. i've been inspired by a bunch of creative folks i've been finding online. the creative juices have been flowing and it feels good (it's been a while). currently making some neckwarmers (i think i'm going to keep one for myself this time).



lil miss is loving school. the first week had completely wiped her out. i'd find her asleep on the couch before 6pm and she'd sleep thru the nite. i think she's adjusted now.

enjoy the day y'all. love love.

change.

i'm back in school. lil miss starts school on tuesday.
i can feel the seasons change. it'll be fall soon.
i started going thru my storage. it's time to release the old and i'm ready.
my face is breaking out sumthin awful. it's never been this bad before.
maybe it's time for that detox i've been talking about forever.

the last few weeks have been one of inner reflection. a lot of changes need to happen. i've always known it, but wasn't ready to face it. i am now.

i hope you all have a great weekend.
remember to take care of yourself.