i'm giving tumblr a try.

greetings, i've been neglecting this little ole blog. so much has happened since my last post.
i am good. we are good.
i'm currently on vacation. spending a month on the east coast visiting loved ones.
we pulled into norfolk, va today.
left dover, de earlier.

here we are at rehoboth beach, de.


i will be adding photos of our trip as the days progress.
peace.

this is my last week at work.
i've been looking forward to taking that afternoon yoga class i've been wanting to do for over a year now.
also been dreaming of spring. the sun has been shining so bright lately, that it's almost tricked me into thinking spring is around the corner.
i'm going to finally take that vacation i've been thinking about the last 8 months.

how are you? what's new?

my subconscious has been working overtime.
i dreamt i was in a relationship.
i felt special.
beautiful.
loved.
then! the scene switched
& i was laughing with my girl.
i woke up that way.
LAUGHING &
feeling special
& beautiful
& loved.


:::

embroidery still has my attention. i added some fruit to the other side of my tea towel. it's really cute.

i think i've found a new hobby to add to my list. embroidery. i love it. the patterns i used are from jenny hart's sublime stitching. i finished this tea towel tonight and i think it came out good for a first try.

i've got so much to look forward to.

after a lot of agonizing, i've decided to leave my job. the thought of pursuing bflywears full-time had been eating away at me so i figured i should give it a shot. i'm very glad i made the decision to do it. all of the stress i've been experiencing the last couple of years disappeared the moment i gave my boss my resignation letter.

i'm proud of myself for standing my ground (my folks were not happy) because quite a few ppl have expressed their concern for me and my children's well being. most ppl think i'm completely out of my mind. that's okay because i know deep in my heart that leaving is the right decision. that's all that really matters.

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i have gotten the spinning wheel out again. i'm determined to get the hang of it. i had someone look at it today because something seemed to be wrong with the wheel. thank goodness it was fine. so now i gotta get my hand and feet coordination in sync. right now, it's just not together.

i'm thankful for my family and friends.
be blessed.

the store is open & will have some new goodies on friday.
my store will be getting a make over too.
i'm pricing cameras. i need a new so badly. canon or nikon? can't decide which.

two. more. weeks.
& school will be done for a while.

playing: w/ some vintage wool i bought @ a moving sale.
reading: 'the dip' by seth godin for a school project.
eating: freschetta 6 cheese pizza.
listening: PPP abundance mixtape
smelling: sandalwood incense
dreaming: a lot.

this month feels electric. anxiously waiting for the school term to over so i can focus on other things like CREATING. i'm ready to dive into sewing. recently bought the new Sew U & want to play with knit fabrics. i've been beating myself up for getting rid of my oversized tees. i could really use them now. anyway, there's a new moon tonite & i'm setting my intentions for this cycle. i'm so excited! praying all is well with you. love.

i've been in the house all day.
flipping thru mags.
watching flix on netflix.
thinking about the date i had on friday.
it was fun.
he was fun.
can't stop thinking about him & i'm surprised by it.

i'm lying in bed w/ the window cracked open.
gotta let some of the cool nite air in.
peeking thru the window
i see black sky & white clouds.
it's still somewhat warm.
i hope he's safe.

i'm reopening the shop jan. 30th. i've been making a little here & there. school is done mid-february. i've got a presentation to prepare & two papers to write. have i started on either? no.

i'm ready to embark on a different path. i know the life i see in my head is totally different from the one i live now. if i want that life then some huge changes need to be made. do i have the courage to step out on faith & leave all that is familiar to me?

today, the sun shone so brightly.
i went outside & it felt like spring.
45 degrees. loved it.
it's been that way all week.

eating: black bean burgers & tater tots
drinking: stash chai tea w/ soy milk & sugar
watching: house party 2
smelling: maroma cinnamon incense
making: new tams for the shop.

happy new year!

i am very excited about this year. i've got so many good things planned and i can't wait to embark on them.

i made a few resolutions:
1. have more fun with my wardrobe.
2. use my food processor more
3. say yes more

i've fallen into a rut with my wardrobe and that's gonna change. i haven't been feeling too fly lately and i've gained my weight back so needless to say i haven't felt inspired to create new outfits from my wardrobe.

i made fresh guacomole yesterday and realized if i leave my food processor out on the counter instead of in a cabinet, i will use it a lot more.

i must say yes more often. yes to new opportunities. this year is about having fun and discovering new things.

i'm currently working on my office/studio space. i've been watching a lot of threadbanger and have the urge to sew.

i'm always inspired by the artists they interview. i want to make a loom now too. check the vid!



wishing you all peace and prosperity this year!

i've been knitting & boy does it feel good.

this is a baby sweater for my little cousin. i used the knitting pure & simple neckdown baby cardigan pattern. the size is 18 months, but when i first looked at it i wasn't sure if it was big enough. it seems like it's been such a long time since lil miss could fit in something this small.

i'm currently looking for a new project to start. it's been so cold lately that i've been tempted to start another sweater. i do need a new cardi in my life.

*swoon*

stephanie japel's therapi pattern in the new knitty.

also in the new knitty is norah gaughan's surface.  love the bobbly texture of this sweater.

i miss knitting for me.  that's gonna change.  gotta cast on something even it's something as little as a headband.

i've been making a dent in my bead stash lately.


the yellow strand is the waistbeads i made for myself.


right now, i'm using seed beads, some african trade beads, cowries, and some other beads that's in my stash (don't know what they are called). i'm pleased with the results so far and will be making a ton more.

the weekend just sped by. lately, when saturday eve rolls around the depression rolls in & i think about how after sunday i have to go back to work. i dread walking into that office everyday. it's not a happy place for me.

this weekend, lil miss & i put up the christmas tree. we also baked cupcakes.
i started a pair of socks & anutha neckwarmer.
i was recently diagnosed with having slight carpal tunnel in both hands. i'm not in any pain (thank god), just getting the tingley/numbness of the hands thing. after this retail season is done, i plan on closing shop for a couple of months.
i've started beading. i figure i could save so much money if i make my own jewelry so that's what i'm doing. so far, i've made some waistbeads and a couple of wrap-around bracelets.

i will post up some pics soon.
i pray all is well with you.

today's a new day & i'm feeling better.
i got some decisions to make tho.
can't keep living like this.

have a blessed day all.

lord help me get thru this thing i'm going thru.

i'm feeling...
unsure.
confused.
like i want to jump outta my skin.
lost.

spoke to my brother today and he said that once he would love to hear that "i am great" when he asks how i'm doing. i'm alright. okay. keeping my head above water. i'm want to be GREAT too.

i've got tons of ideas & don't know what to do with them.
i know what direction i want to go in but don't know how to get there.
i sound like a broken record.
i feel alone, but @ the same time i want to be by myself.

*sigh*